Anyone else notice how hard it is to open these?

25 04 2012


Zombie Testing

22 04 2012

Incorporating diabetes management into my life is basically second nature because I’ve had it for 16 years. Recently I have been experiencing what I like to call “zombie testing”. In most cases, I’ll test my blood sugar and clean up without even looking at the number on my meter. Sometimes I look at it, but since my brain is so accustomed to staring at that little screen that I don’t truly read it and make a mental note of it. My mom will ask me what my blood sugar is to which I’ll reply “uhhhh, I don’t know” which seems like the classic rookie mistake when it comes to lying about your blood sugars. Honestly it is because I have entered the state of zombie testing. There’s no other way of describing it.

I mean, usually I’ll notice the number if I’m low because I’ll have to treat it and I probably tested in the first place because I felt symptoms. But if I’m just testing before a meal, sometimes it doesn’t matter what my number is because if it’s in target, it’s in target and if it’s high, my pump will take care of it for me when I bolus for my food.

Sometimes, my state of zombie testing gets so intense that I actually test a second time because I have no recollection of testing the first time. I will then get very confused by the déjà vu feeling of already testing before and getting the same result. Then I’ll just facepalm at my stupidity.

I’m lucky to have a OneTouch Ultra Link meter which sends my blood sugar readings straight to my Medtronic MiniMed Paradigm pump (which I can’t link to because it is outdated) using some form of witchcraft. Maybe someday diabetes management will get even more mindless. Maybe I’ll never have to consciously test my blood sugar because I’ll have a device that accurately does it for me. Maybe I’ll never have to correct highs or lows myself again because I’ll have a device that administers insulin and glucose automatically. Food for thought.

The Normal People Stuff

22 04 2012

I’ve been utterly exhausted all day today. I woke up at at 10:30 am, took a 2:30 hour nap, and yet I’m still exhausted.

First thought. Diabetes. Maybe it’s because I forgot to take my Synthroid twice this week and I usually never miss a dose. Maybe it’s because I’ve been stuffing my face with food until I’m in a sedated post-Thanksgiving state. (The food that the local food center provides for Evita rehearsals is just so yummy).

But maybe it’s not diabetes-related at all. Maybe it’s just the Normal People Stuff. I had a long week at school, a treacherous yet necessary eye doctor appointment, and extremely lengthy Evita rehearsals. Who knows.

Shit People Say to Diabetics

22 04 2012

This isn’t all that new but it pretty much sums it up. Credit to (x).

Running on E

21 04 2012

You know once in a lifetime you run out of shampoo and conditioner at the same time? Well today I ran out of insulin and battery at the same time. That’s an accomplishment.


21 04 2012

I love those little moments where people just get it. It reassures me that at least some people understand. It also affirms that my constant advocacy isn’t for nothing.

This past monday I visited Hartt for admitted students day for performing arts management/music management/music production & technology majors. One portion of the session was having lunch with current Hartt students. It was a beautiful day in Hartford that day, so I was wearing a dress. During lunch, I took my pump out of my bra to bolus, expecting the usual puzzled looks. One was from the current TA of the professor who is the director of my program. All I said was “I’m diabetic” and smiled to assure him that I wasn’t weirded out. His only reply was “thought so” as he nodded toward the pump.

Then we continued our conversation about music.

Six Until Me

19 04 2012

I’ve been a huge fan of Kerri Sparling, owner of the diabetes blog Six Until Me for year. I’m pretty sure she had a Medtronic pump and was engaged at the time I started reading her blog. She is now happily married with a beautiful two-year-old. We’ve accomplished that in the DOC (Diabetes Online Community) it’s ok to be lurkers. ;). I’ve loved being able to watch her life completely change in so many good ways over the years. She was the first and only diabetes blog I knew of for quite a while. In fact, I was satisfied with only knowing hers because I love her writing style and sense of humor and I can relate to every single post. Well, with the exception, of course, of the posts related to marriage and pregnancy. I am neither married nor pregnant. But that’s besides the point.

I receive incessant emails about diabetes-related events in my area from advocacy to support groups. One recent one caught my eye.

“An Evening For Type 1 Adults”

Most events I go to are for children and do not pertain to me whatsoever. I’m fine sharing my expertise with parents but I’ve never personally gotten any support out of it. I’ve tried countless time to start a teen support group, with no success or support, for lack of a better term. This one caught my eye because Kerri Sparling will be attending to discuss the DOC and social media.

Now I’ve met my fair share of celebrities in my lifetime (see tumblr) that my friends are quite jealous of but this was an opportunity like no idea. Unless you’re diabetic or love a diabetic, you probably haven’t heard of Kerri. But this young woman is a role model of mine and I was ecstatic to be able to meet her.

I arrived at a condo clubhouse about twenty minutes from my mom’s office, where I also work, on Tuesday night. I was greeted by some familiar faces and many unfamiliar faces. One, of course, being Kerri. She led the conversation along with another diabetes blogger, Karen. There was a hodgepodge of diabetics at this meeting. Many were older and one even had Type 2. One of which was my dear friend Bunny, Type 1 Diabetic and grandmother to 2 Type 1s as well. I was the youngest by around 10 years. I didn’t mind though. Everyone was welcome and everyone felt comfortable. My mother was my ‘significant other’ and one kind young woman Sandra brought her 8-month-old as her significant other.

Although I know a ton about social media already (hello I’m 17 here), it was still enlightening and pleasurable. I loved taking part in the discussion and I loved hearing everyone’s insight. Kerri even pointed me out when discussing twitter because she recognized me. Overall, it was an incredible experience and I would definitely go again if presented the opportunity. After two or so hours of circle-style discussion, there was some mingling before everyone returned to their homes. I of course waited for a chance to talk to Kerri and gush over how great it was to meet her.

The entire experience empowered me and if I hadn’t been diagnosed with this horrible disease 16 years ago, I would have never met such a wonderful online community.